Anxiety of adding baby #2

Well, today I lost it.   I spilled some milk and the flood gates opened.  Literally.  Rod wanted some milk so I got him some.  Then I spilled it every where.  Cue the tears.  Then Rod started crying.  It was the sweetest, saddest thing.  I went to the bedroom, snuggled up with him and cried for about 10 minutes.  The last few days have been sort of tough.   The baby must be sitting on a nerve or something because my right leg is in a lot of pain. I can't quite describe it.  Not cramping, not contractions, just an achy pain.   I haven't been exercising because it hurts to walk, let alone exercise.  I rest when I can but lets face it...who can rest when they are chasing after a toddler.   My house is not as clean as I would like it.  It hurts to move.  So I guess lately I've been feeling like a bit of a failure. 
It really just sucks.   I'm stressed about taking care of things when I have two.  Actually - it wont be so bad at first.  My house was much cleaner before I had a toddler.  Everyone says things get crazy when the baby is born.  That's a lie.  Things get crazy when your little bundle of joy starts to move.  Then as toddlers they can reach higher and move faster.  lol.  I know God is blessing us with another wonderful gift, and Rod is getting a brother or sister but I can't help but feel scared.  It doesn't help when it feels like the whole world is "warning" you about two.

"Say goodbye to any free time you THOUGHT you had!"

"It's hardest going from one to two!"

"Have fun with a toddler AND a newborn"

And my favorite said in sarcastic tone, "Have fuuuuun" As if having two is the worst decision I could make.

Of all the negatives though, I did hear a positive.  On one of my "mom" pages on facebook, someone said one of the best things she could give her child was a sibling. If only everyone talked that positive!  Don't get me wrong, I get that adding a new baby to the family means major changes.  But it would be better to be set up with happiness than anxiety!  Am I making sense?    It's sort of like having Rod.  Everyone told me that it was going to be hard, and this and that.....and some days are.  But the good outweighs the difficult by far! 

Today was not a good one.  Well, Rod was actually pretty good.  I guess all the "little things" added up and the milk was the straw that broke the camels back.  I'm ashamed to admit that I ate crap.  I went to Dairy Queen for a heath blizzard and fries.  I completely ate through my emotions.  Now I'm sitting here feeling crappy because I could have made better choices.   Tomorrow is a new day.  Hopefully  the pain will go away (Midwife said it was normal and should soon) and I'll be able to work out and get some house work done.  
       

Insanity on sale - how it changed me

Insanity is one tough program!  It was the first program I attempted after a c section with my son!  Why do I say attempted? Well, I simply couldn't finish it.  Heck, I could barely start it!  Before I got pregnant with my son, I was training for a half marathon.   I had a membership with 24 hour fitness and worked out with a friend.  The weight was coming off.  Then I found out I was pregnant.  Any and all exercise was immediately banned.  Not by my midwife.  In fact, she told me to keep going!  I was afraid that by running or exercising the baby would "fall out."  Yeah, I know...how stupid.  Either way - it was a good excuse to stop working out.  And apparently, a good reason to stop eating healthy too.

Despite being pregnant and knowing I needed to eat healthy, my diet consisted of sugary drinks, overly processed foods, candy, french fries, ice cream and the occasional healthy food that I didn't like but made myself eat "for the baby."   Well, surprise surprise I gained weight and gained it FAST!  Also became severely bloated and unhappy.  Come delivery it wasn't happening.  C section that ended up being infected and my 6 - 8 weeks healing time turned into 12!!!!  Time flies and I get the ok.  So I decided to work out to Insanity with one of my best friends, Jana.   Oh my stars.  It was the HARDEST thing I had done in a long time.  I couldn't get through week one.  I could tell that it was bothering my c section scar and I simply wasn't ready.   I started again a month later.  While I was feeling better, healed and could do it (or at least attemt), my heart was not in it.  Almost a year of not working out and eating healthy had taken it's toll.  I put it on the back burner once again.

When my friend (and now coach) started her challenge group, I decided NOW was the time.  My son was almost a year old and I had gained weight instead of lost it.  I got busy and started working hard.  It wasn't easy. There were times I wanted to give up.  I wanted to toss it in for an easier work out or just play with my baby.  But I HAD to do it.  If I didn't, I was only going to get bigger and bigger.  I would work out when my son was napping or when my husband could watch him.  Then I'd get busy!  I learned a lot about myself, exercising, and so much more.   My Insanity results were not what I wanted but you know what?  Rome wasn't built in a day!  I did one round of Insanity and it was the start of my fitness journey.

If your ready to start your journey, please contact me.   Insanity is on SALE until the end of April.  The challenge pack will be giving you a $90 discount!  I'm getting together with other people and we are starting a support group.  This group helped me stay accountable and helped me reach my first small weight loss goal.  Not to mention, it was FUN!  I wouldn't be on this journey if it wasn't for the support my team had given me.   Message me TODAY if your ready to start your own journey!!!

This deal is good for the month of April ONLY!

Weightloss, pregnancy and emotions

I'm in the final stages of my pregnancy and I realize that some of my pre pregnancy clothes still fit.  Don't get too excited.  These are the pre pregnancy pre weight loss clothes.  They fit me pregnant!  What a wake up call.   I've talked to a few friends and they say "well it's ok, your pregnant."  Really, it's not ok.  At some point in my life, I allowed myself to get big enough to wear clothes, that fit me pregnant.  At what point did I lose control?  What happened?  How did I not see it!  It was a real wake up call.   And very depressing. 

Going through my own weight loss journey was hard enough, now that I'm pregnant it seems to be harder.  Emotionally anyways.  After losing 30 lbs, it is hard to not worry about weight gain.  I spoke with an RN at my last appointment.  She told me not to worry about my weight and that I was on the right track.  She doesn't know me well, so she doesn't really know my past struggles.  How can I not worry about weight gain when it comes on so easily?  I gained 70 lbs with my first and although nearly done, I'm still terrified of putting on an unhealthy amount of weight. 

To date, I've still put on just 10 lbs.  I'm very thankful for that.  I have been focusing on eating healthy and exercising.  If I didn't have such a huge support system, I'm not sure I would be where I am.   I never want to go back to where I was.  I have a plan for post delivery and I know I will get my goal.  After the delivery of my son, I depended on Breastfeeding to take the weight off.  It did not.  This go round, I'm depending on a healthy diet and exercise.  Here's to a successful remaining pregnancy!   I can't wait to start a new journey!

Pregnanancy and eating out....conveniance over smart choices

It seems like since Easter weekend I've wanted to devour anything and everything.  Between all the traveling and Easter my food intake has been less than impressive.   I must say, I'm actually sick of eating out.  Even though we tried to go to healthier places, subway or sit down joints, I'm still over it.  But now that I'm not eating it as much I do miss the convenience.  Lets face it, most people eat out because they don't want to cook themselves.   That was hard to get over when I got back.  I don't want to deal with meal planning and cooking dinner.  However, I don't want to deal with gaining 70 lbs during this pregnancy either.  
Don't think I came home and started eating fresh fruits and veggies while singing Kum by Ya at the dinner table.  I came home to no food and decided to eat out for two days before we actually made it to the grocery store.  Even though I was sick of take away foods, I did enjoy the convenience.   But that must change.

I have been eating at home now.  Getting back to our regular schedule.  It's crazy to see how the food changed my son.  He constantly asks for cereal or mac n cheese.  While we do occasionally eat those, it's time for a break.  The other day I made rice and beans with green beans.  It was very good.  Felt good to have REAL home cooked food in my body again.  I noticed results almost immediately.  I felt good, more energy and realized (once again) how important it is as to how food effects our bodies. 

Anyways- for the update.  I went to my doc last week.  I'm happy to say that I've only gained 10 lbs!!!!  By this time with my first I had already gained 35 lbs!  I'm glad I made the choices I made while on vacation.  Even though I ate out, I still made good choices.  No soda, only water.  Baked not fried.  Limit desserts.  There was a time when i would have gained 10 lbs on a vacation alone!   My plan until delivery is to continue to work out, eat healthy and focus on a HEALTHY pregnancy!  :)  

Disney Success Club Trip With a Toddler....

It was amazing.   Since joining Beachbody in October of 2011, I have come so far.  I've done other network marketing companies but haven't felt that special something.   In January of 2012 Beachbody announced that they were going to Disney World for their annual success club trip.  I knew I was going.  One way or another, I was going to go!   What I learned over this past year was amazing.  :)  I really enjoyed meeting new coaches and learning new things.  I set goals, tried, and conquered.  I qualified for the trip and I went!  BEST DECISION EVER! 

I arrived a day early and got to relax with my son at the resort.   We ended up eating at Trex in down town Disney.  That was ok, overpriced but now I can say we went.   Day 1 we went to Hollywood Studios.  My son (2 years old) enjoyed many of the shows - including the Buzz Light year one!  Tip:  Get a fast pass for that first thing!  I waited less than 10 minutes while the stand by wait was over an hour!  His favorite by far was the Honey I Shrunk the Kids Playground.  He didn't really explore much, just wanted to climb the net tower over and over again!  This was a fairly low key park and good for starting off. 

Day 2 was a short day as we had a reception party to attend that evening.   We went to the Polynesian for breakfast with Lilo and Stitch then hit Animal Kingdom.  We were only there about 5 hours but hit all the main things.  Rod really loved the Jungle Cruise, train to Rafiki's, and Nemo show.  We would have stayed a bit longer but had to get ready.  The reception was great.  So kid friendly!   Also - the invitation said Beachbody would provide "lite fare."  Apparently, that meant Mahi Mahi, shrimp skewers, boca burgers, burrito's, salad, dessert, and even a special kids menu that included Mickey Mouse shaped macaroni!  It was very family themed, characters, music, balloon animals....all very appreciative since I brought my son!  

My son and I with Donald and Goofy

My best friend Alison and I at the reception

Day 4 we did not go to any park.  We had a conference all day.   I teamed up with a few other coaches and used a Disney baby sitter.  She was awesome.  So was the conference.  I think my new favorite speaker is Chris Widener.  He is so funny.  It was a relief to hear some comedy along with some insightful advice!  I recommend looking him up on Youtube.  Smart, smart man!    After our conference we had a few hours before we went to our team cocktail party.   There is something special about getting together with your team mates!   Each one of us is a piece to a successful puzzle.  I know I can count on these people for help and advice.    So glad to be on a team with these amazing people!

Days 5 and 6 were my favorite.  We spent those two days at Magic Kingdom!  Not only did my son have the time of his life, but I got to see his eyes light up and watch him have fun! Watching him was so amazing.  We also ate at Chef Mickey's.  This was so fun.  It was nice that the monorail stopped here so that we were able to leave the park, eat, and go back all by monorail.  The service was good, it was buffet style and over all, just a great time.   I'm also glad to say that my son has my passion for Disney.  he did not want to leave.  He enjoyed every minute of it as much as I did.  :) 

There is a part of me that still can't believe I earned that trip.   It was important for me to involve my family in the rewards.  I am so thankful that Beachbody puts together events like this.  I always learn new things, meet new people, and end up happy that I am happy to be working with this company.   It truly is a company whose heart is in the right place.